Broken Minds Can Be Healed

I am writing this blog not only for myself but in the hopes that is will help someone that is going through the something I have and am going through.

Many of you may or may not know I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints {or Mormon as its commonly known}, and as hard as it is to admit I have been inactive for 2 years.

I got married and moved to Kansas where my husband is stationed. Moving meant attending a new ward. I didn't want to leave my home ward I grow up in, I love that ward and I always will. But sadly getting married means you follow your husband where ever he may go. I was more than happy to move to be with my husband, but I was scared out of my mind. If you know me I don't like change what so ever but I had to face my fears and go to my new ward. My new ward was nothing like my home ward and I just felt uncomfortable. I didn't want to stay past sacrament meeting but my husband convinced me to stay. It was in Relief Society that I decided I didn't want to go to this new ward anymore. The Lesson was about the Temple and the blessings of going to the Temple. In her lesson she stated that anyone that has had sex out of wedlock should be excommunicated because even if they repented they are going to hell anyways. At that moment I decided I didn't want to be apart of that ward. As many of you know I have had sex and had a baby out of wedlock. So I was very upset that someone, a member of my church was saying things that aren't true.

I don't want to sit here a say I stopped going to church because of what that woman had said, yes it was a reason I stopped going to my new ward but not why I stopped going to church. There was a lot more to why I stopped going to church all together. I was angry that my uncle died, I was angry that none of my friends I grow up with talked to me anyone. I was angry that I had a miscarriage.  I was just angry at the world but I think the main reason why was when my parents got a divorce. Weather I want to admit it to my mom or not I couldn't cope with it, it seemed like everything I learned was a lie and after finding out my dads deepest darkest secret well that hit the final nail in the coffin. I decided I didn't care anymore, what was the point. So I got my nosed pieced, started smoking, started saying every bad word I could think of, and maxed out our credit cards.

I never realized how my actions effected my kids, my marriage or even myself. Till the day my oldest son asked me who the picture of the man on our bookshelf was. At that moment I realized because I was angry with my dad and to be honest a little angry with God, I let my kids down in knowing who our savior is and all the sacrifices he made for us.

So I throw the cigarettes away and talked to my Dr. about quitting, took my piecing out, got a swear jar, started to get my credit cards under control, and I took the biggest step for my kids, my marriage and myself. We went back to church.

Going back to church was not like I expected. I would come up with every excuse in the book to not go back to church in the past. But going back was the best choice I made. Every talk was like it was pointed at me in confirming that I had made the right choice in coming back to church. I realized today that it wasn't anyone's fault but my own to why I didn't want to go back to church. I should have used the church to answer my questions instead of getting angry and doing everything in my power to not go to church.

So I want to take this moment and encourage you to help anyone struggling with church or just life in general or help them by answering their questions or help by just being their friend. And please remember not to judge anyone because you never know what battle they are facing.

Broken minds can be healed just like the way broken bones and broken hearts can be healed. While God is at work making these repairs, the rest of us can help by being merciful, nonjudgmental, and kind. ~Jeffery R Holland

Our Freedom....

I know Veterans Day has come and passed but it is never to late to thank a soldier or veteran for all the sacrifice they've done to help protect our country. Today my heart sank in the worst way it can. As I was drive to pick my brothers up from school I was stopped at a light and looked over next to me, come to see 2 soldiers in their dress uniforms so I smiled and waved and they waved back but no smile. (Cj yelled daddy lol but he thinks everyone in a uniform is daddy) it wasn't till the light turned green and I saw that it was a government official car that my heart dropped. That is every soldiers wife or husband and families worst nightmare. Those 2 soldiers were going to go tell some poor family their soldier had died. I am so very grateful for the many soldiers who are and have sacrificed their lives to protect our freedom!

My Dad

I have the greatest Dad ever! He does so much for my family and I. He works his butt off to be able to help us out. We have had our ups and downs and he wasn't there as much as I would have like when I was younger but he is there for me now and that's all that matter to me :) I see my dad so much now because he works close to where I live now, it is awesome! My dad is so handy and creative. Today he turn Easton's Battary operated swing into a plug in. I didn't think It was possible until he plugged it in and it started going. He made my life so much easier and my wallet so much more fuller lol I don't know what I would do with out my dad. I really don't thinks he knows how much I love him and care about him! I love you so much Daddy!

The Longest Month Ever

I love my husband so much and all that he does for our family. its only been 2 weeks since ive seen or spoken to my husband. i miss seeing his face everyday and night and the sound of his voice just to know that he is ok and i still have a little more then 2 weeks to go! i am going crazy. James is my other half, my best friend i honestly do not know what i would do with out him. He is an amazing husband and father to both our boys. they both are so much like him its not even funny. Cj has his personality all the way lol which i am not so sure is such a good thing, and Easton always has the same grumpy look that James has all the time. i just hope they grow up to be amazing dads just like James is! You really know how much you care for someone when you cant see or talk to them for a month. i miss all the silly and goofy things he does!

 

 

 

Thanksgiving needs to get here faster I MISS MY HUSBAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wettstein Update...

i really need to keep up with my blogging last time i blogged i was 14 week pregnant Easton :) so ill give you a little update as to what the Wettstein Family has been up too since my last blog.

Well i had Easton on August 14, 2012 ( 9 days before Cj's birhday so now i have 2 August babies <3 ) at 11:30 pm. He weight 8 lbs 9 oz and 20 inches long. He looks so much like James its not even funny, he always has the same grumpy look his dad. It was an amazing labor. James' unit was having a Brigade Fun day that day with a BBQ and games for the Soldiers and their families. At about 1:30 pm i was eating lunch with some of the other soldiers when my water broke but i didnt realize it at the time (it didnt break like in the movies, it was kind like i peed myself which to be honest was not out of the ordinary at that point in my pregnacy lol) but of course my husband was no where to be found. i had to have to one of my husbands buddy find him for me so i could go to the car to go home and change but i wanted to let him know what i was doing because we were about 20 mins away from the house. he finally came to the car and asked what was wrong so i told him i had wet myself and wanted to go home to change, but he was worried it was my water that broke, i didnt think it was until i started feeling cramps thats when i told him we needed to go to the Hospital. There was just a few problems, 1. We drove separete cars so i would have to drive myself home while having contractions and 2. We were 20 mins away(and it was the longest 20 min of my life). We finally got to the hospital and i got hooked up to the machines come to find out that i was 5 cm and having contractions every 2 mins, i was in shock! i wasnt really in any pain but got an epidural to feel more comfortable at about 11:20 pm i was 10 cm and ready to push and after 2 pushed he was born 10 mins later it was amazing! Considering we were so worried he would be to big and i would have to get a C section. If everytime i went through labor and it was like that i would have 10 kids lol. Easton is now  3 months old and James, Cj and i are so in love with him. He is an amazing baby, he never cries just fusses a little when he is hungry or needs a diaper change. We are so very blessed and lucky to have 2 healthy beautiful Boys!

Cj is getting so big he is 2 now and is such and little smartypants. He is talking up a storm, he knows all his basic shapes and animals and can count to 20. James and i are so very proud of him. He is getting so big it seems like yesterday when i had him.

James received his stripes, he is a Sargent of the United States Army! I am so proud of him he is a great and amazing leader to his soldiers. He works his butt off and is amazing at his job. Right now he is training at Fort Irwin CA NTC (National Training Center) preparing for when he deploys next year to Afghanistan (when the boys and i will move back to Washington for a year till James comes home) i am thankful for all the things he does for our family. So right now the boys and i are back in Washington spending some time with my mom and brothers, let me tell you it is great being back home to the west coast :) we are here till right before thanksgiving then we are headed down to California to meet James and spend Thanksgiving with my mom's side of the family.

So there is alittle update as to what has been going on. One of my goals is to keep this up, cross your fingers for me

Wettstein Family

There is alot going on lately and we are so excited!!!!

We just found out James and I are expecting Baby #2. James is so happy to be a daddy AGAIN! I am 14 weeks, 6 more weeks and we find out what it is. James cant wait, he wants to start buying things everytime we go to the store. He is one happy DADDY :)

James is in the United States Army! I am so proud of him :) and yes that does mean I am an Army wife and let me tell you that is different. James is working his butt off lately and is working to becoming a Sargent i am so proud of him i know he will be a great leader in leading his soldiors. The higher in rank James gets the more responsiblity James AND I have its alittle scary but thats the Army for you! James wants to retire in the Army and I support him a 100% Just as he supports me in everything that I do. He is reenlisting soon and asking for a transfor, we havent desided were we want to put it in to yet but i am praying for Fort Lewis, WA.

Cj is getting SO BIG!! He is 19 months now and talking like crazy and boy does he have additude on him, i guess thats alittle bit of a pay back for the way i was with my mom lol. He is a little James its not even funny lol More and more everyday he is so much like James you cant even tell he isnt his blood, but that doesnt matter to James because to him he is 100% his :)